Nai Xin

2011-03-04T18:47:00.000-08:00

fucking emo blog .

ccb .

fuck everybody around me seriously . -.-

wtf is wrong with all of you ?

got something against me is it ? _|_

cb sia all like no life only .

stalk me for simi lan .

stalk somemore your son no dick la .

cb i feel so fucking stressed now .

fuck my life la .

fuckkkkkkkk you .

seriously . act holy with me ?

go and fuck yourself see weather you still holy or not la lj .

i swear that i'm gonna make revenge one day .

you just fucking stay alive and wait .

don't let me ever see you again man .

you're dead .

2011-03-03T04:04:00.001-08:00

ehhh fuck you teo ee zi don't come here act holy with me fuck your mother la . _|_

2011-02-14T03:59:00.000-08:00

fuck la fuck la fuck la . _|_

omfg seriously i should just one day and kill my sister sia omfg .

fuck my life sia why got kids like this one what the hack . _|_

ccb lj dog and even my grandparents also fucking fucked up sia knnbccb .

what the hell is fucking wrong with everyone sia bitches and bustards .

fml like wtf la valentine's day i want celebrate also can't lj .

ccb my rose why the fuck must give it to you knn . _|_

i swear when you fucking grow up i'm going to ask everyone in your school to beat you up la .

kpkb stop fucking even say my name man fuck you la . -.-

_|_ cb .

cb life . everything going on like lj . -.-

2010-09-06T18:48:00.000-07:00

so yea my birthday's over .

&& i'm dead just thinking about band .

screw my life like seriously .

just every sentence you say make me buaysong .

and i was so dead just in 2h .

i mean , its a really fun class .

but everyone don't seems to put there priority on studies .

serious .

i got so tired chasing after people to do literature drama .

and i think i should just give up .

before i throw my temper and make everyone thinks that i'm a fucking bitch .

-.- well . i think you're a fucking bustard already .

so no point talking to you anymore .

you're just ... hopeless .

hopefully you'll have a future .

being a ?

cleaner ?

good luck to you .

2010-08-31T08:11:00.000-07:00

i still like my this fringe . D: fml for cutting the new one . -.-

today morning walk to school with samantha and isabelle .

hahaha samantha saw my bag and smsed me .

lols . my bag's that obvious !!

and then ,

we talked and talked and talked .

and our topic went to the japan trip .

oh so only 24 people's going .

that's like half of the band only . -.-

so ,

you think we will benefit ?

totally crap .

it won't benefit the band anything !

-.-

since i'm in the outsider view of this issue .

i can't really talk much about it .

oh well , just in case some people might see this and say bitchy things about me .

i don't know . -.-

but what i am sure of ,

the band sure sure sure sure won't benefit .

haha like maybe ,

maybe ,

only those 1st and 2nd .

yea and the thirds are dead .

totally dead .

whatever ,

i'm not gonna think .

if not later got moodswing .

2010-08-29T07:21:00.000-07:00

oh well , i still remember that there's this giant tree at my house in china .

well its probably dead now since my dad's so hot tempered recently . -.-

healthy lifestyle campaign's been going on quite well .

ha . though its the third week only and i missed the second week .

but at least its better than nothing ok .

hahaha

i'm really gonna continue this .

till someday ?

its gonna be fun .

even though it might be just 2 person .

but i really enjoy it .

and i hope in the process ,

i really can burn down some fats . -.-

hahaha

hmmm ,

need to really work hard for my studies .

oh this suddenly remind me of the trip to japan .

it was a joke man . seriously .

they said its gonna be a count of the result .

oh well ,

some people's result's really lousy .

and i mean , really .

i'm not trying to be sarcastic but its just the fact .

and the fact that david's so happy cause his mom is going to left him alone in the house .

-.-

bias . stupid . tired . anger . seniors .

words i found to discribe band .

but again this reminds me of yijin darling .

who actually love her band so much until now .

its kind of awesome to me .

and yea , she plays awesomely too .

and i'm jealous . hahahah

but don't be scared ,

i'm not going to work hard just because i'm jealous .

wait till i find the real reason . ;D

then maybe , i'll try . :D

hahaha

anyway my chat box is dead .

i don't intend to reply any messages anymore .

hahaha .

this place is dead .

but its just gonna be a place to let me say out everything i wanted to .

xDD

life maybe awesome , for this moment .

2010-08-27T07:32:00.000-07:00

hahaha . i remember this is the first photo that i took using my phone .

hmmm .

i guess .

some of the patience left for the one last chance is almost used up .

i guess theory test was quite ok ?

it wasn't as difficult as i thought . -.-

really . and with the help of brendan and haixin .

hmmm .

fine . perhaps he's really a nice person .

but , like the scars are already there .

maybe it really tooks another long time before i can really find back ,

my passions in band .

oh well .

at least i'm trying .

so whoever trys to stress me out or something .

-.- watch out . -.-

lol .

chinese result is seriously suckish .

i got to seriously buck up .

-.-

my english's catching up man !

how amazing !!!

hahahaha =p

2010-08-23T02:59:00.000-07:00

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2010-08-19T05:33:00.001-07:00

i miss the old times .

fml . like seriously .

i feel like dying now already .

oh freak .

i hated my fringe .

for the first time in my entire life .

oh gosh .

i would rather pin it up then letting it down .

oh fuck .

i hated myself .

=.=

i've been screwing my life like nobody's business .

i need to have a freaking life .

i hate myself .

fml . mls .

i hated myself .

2010-08-18T02:50:00.000-07:00

like seriously , i miss it .

i rather people say i look really ugly in it ,

but i just like it .

oh freak .

regrets much .

-.-

and so today i emoed for quite a while .

got reason ?

of course la .

-.-

just getting pissed off .

oh freak .

why is things happening like this .

-.-

i just feel like shouting fuck into myself man .

what's wrong with me ?

and what's wrong with this freaking world .

-.-

haix .

chill man .

i need to chill myself .

freak .

its like so hard .

cause i just can't .

stop thinking about it . -.-

freak sia .

really .

freak .

its been a long time .

2010-08-16T07:22:00.000-07:00

i feel weird .

so long never go teens already .

my life is screwed man .

oh my .

=.=

i have no idea what's going on in my daily lifes .

oh freak .

-.-

yes , i have no more passion in my life .

all those got ruined by people .

people who wanted to like ,

transfer me to oboe , bassoon and bass clarinet ?

oh what shit man .

and oh i'm referring to my life in band .

freaks ,

there must be a reason right ,

that everyone around me ,

who are non - band - er ,

ask me to pon band .

and i mean ,

everyone .

each and single one of them been telling me that .

haix .

see , my screwed life begins like that .

my friends got angry at me for not going out with them ,

but to go band . =.=

its like ,

naixin , want go out today ? :D

no . i have band .

lol what the hell . tomorrow ?

lol i have band too . T.T

yea shit you la . -.-

and the fact now is ,

i really hate it .

i hate it man .

i don't freaking care how you feel about me .

i don't freaking dream to be a clarinetist anymore .

i don't freaking want to bond with you .

-.-

yes .

and i don't care if i get the cca point .

oh i must be mad already .

excuse me .

don't block my way .

but anyway ,

i still don't think that its my fault k .

you forced me to feel negative .

hell yea man .

bye .

yes mom .

2010-08-12T06:33:00.000-07:00

yes mom .

what you saw is fake .

FAKE .

get it ?

yes he did come to my house .

oh , i mean our house .

on a late saturday night .

-.-

so ?

it don't mean anything okay ?

-.-

lame sia you .

ok bye .

i don't want to explain too much things to you .

-.-

i love my laopo hui ting !! ai si ni le !!!! xDDD

2010-08-11T05:55:00.000-07:00

yea . this post is dedicated to my dearest dearest dearest huiting laopo !!!

xDDD

see i so nice right ?

hahha tomorrow must give me kiss leh !

hehehe .

muackszxzxzx !

my laopo so cute ah .

got cute voice somemore leh !

heh .

go out more often with me kays ?

love you lots !!

hearts hearts .

2010-08-08T21:26:00.000-07:00

lovely girls of mine .

hahahah

love them ! hearts hearts .

today early in the morning went to airport fetch my mama .

woohoo !!

she's finally back !

lalalala

now i no need everytime go out eat le .

at least i know there will be someone at home waiting for me ...

xDDD

i want to buy a bag leh ...

but no one want to buy couple one with me .

chou hui ting !

-.-

heng .

chou chu ting also pangseh people .

one day i shall find another day and

drag someone to buy couple bag with me !!

haha

never minds for now ,

at least i have couple watch and angelt with yi qian .

awww .

hahas

2010-08-07T04:49:00.001-07:00

haha . lucky me sit beside shangle leh . xDD

i look like office women right ? haha

friday ndp wooh .

took taxi to school .

haix .

don't know la .

it was quite okay .

except that it is soooo soooo sooooo hot with blazer and sitting under the hot sun .

-.-

but i still like blazer .

i like myself when i look former .

hahas

tree planting is the shitty part .

waited and waited for stupid ah boon for so long . kns .

-.-

and what the hack la .

i'm so damn angry for missing the part that see chenn sing .

i missed it man !!

walao eh .

i missed so many hao xi in my class .

sian .

ahhh .

epic fail sia .

i hearts chu ting dear dear .

2010-08-04T07:41:00.000-07:00

yoohooo .

i love my er laopo chuuuuu ting .

hearts hearts . xDDD

yea so my long awaiting jelly is here .

muahahah .

finally i known how to make it liao .

actually is so easy la .

hahaha

i bought so so so many different kind one .

haha

know why i so rush ?

cause i wanna make some before my mom come back from china .

then she can taste all the delicious jelly that i hand made .

hahaha i so fillial leh .

xDDD

time spent with chu ting is simply awesome la .

talking about stupid things that happened ,

and discussing who's is more stupid .

hahaha

went to the bus stop and waited for bus like 2 idiot .

uh huh uh huh .

hahha

happy day woooooooh .

xDDD

screw you all to the maximum man . -.-

2010-08-02T04:59:00.000-07:00

i love my dearest dearest qian qian and ah chu .

they are my 2 laopo and xiao laopo . haha

oh gosh , 2.4 was a total crap .

i'm so disappointed at myself .

argh .

and maybe a little angry ?

cause obviously ,

some people said they want to run together ,

and they will not pangseh ,

and in the end that's the only thing that they did .

-.-

should have ran with my other friends lor .

at least i'm so so so so so sure that ,

they won't pangseh me .

and i bet they will keep encourage me and drag me along .

though they ran very fast .

haha .

haix .

i'm so disappointed man .

i ran like super slow .

and i keep stoping .

i'm so stupid to eat so much before that .

argh !!

-.-

stupid stitches .

make me can't even ran and keep stoping .

i think i deproved the most .

T.T

taggies reply . xDD

2010-07-31T06:05:00.000-07:00

RENMENG!: yeps link already !! :D

XUAN: love you dear . :3

YOKETING(:: ahaha . thanks for tagging !!

samantha: yea la yea la . chou mei ! =p

Winnie: haha no problem la . love you . :D

FeLiCiA: haha yes yea i know darling !!

amanda :): hi . :D

Yuling: haha thanks for the tag . yea manbe should stop emoing . hhaa

hello ! x3

2010-07-31T05:19:00.000-07:00

renmeng is my babe . hearts hearts .

friday with bridgel renmeng justion and jaedon was fun .

ultimate see chen's family tree for the win man .

xDD i love see chen . =p

after that went to band .

reheasal for national day parade .

si mr yeow got problem sia .

freaking pms ah .

then ,

went to festival of praise with adrian , hui wen and yanyong .

i thought it was awesome .

but apprantly someone don't think so .

and i suppose i was very very pissed off .

its so hard for me to be a friend .

i don't know .

i don't know what's the problem with me ?

all the promises ,

i know its empty .

yet i choose to believe them .

how stupid .

where are all those days ? X:

2010-07-29T08:09:00.000-07:00

sometimes , i wonder where all those days went ?

it seems so long ago , yet so near . X:

where we self-praced everyday .

and go buy bubble tea and sit on the swing talk about ghost stories .

i think i remembered every single detail happened with the slackers .

its just so fresh in my mind .

like it just happened yesterday ?

but now ,

everything's changed .

sometimes the friendship got destroyed with unknown little things .

and the heavy work made all of us no time to meet up with each other .

things start to change ,

maybe its the fame , the person , or the things around ?

but everything's changed .

i felt so hatred now .

i hate hate hate this situation now .

but there's nothing can be done to make me have that kind of passion again ?

its just soooooo hard .

my heart seems frozen .

so does some of the others .

2010-07-27T01:45:00.000-07:00

no one knows how much i used to love band .

with my whole heart , whole life , whole soul .

but now , i'm not .

what made me become like that ?

many many .

stupid day . >:

2010-07-26T06:38:00.000-07:00

qq is a rock star . haha

uh . today is a stupid day .

yea .

you know ,

i kind of just realise ,

that everyday ,

all my emotions ,

uh duh i'm referring to those BAD emotions ,

mostly all come from band .

which means ,

i always get sad with band .

or whatsoever .

i don't give a damn .

=.=

the concert nus held is awesome ,

the clarinets ran their fingers like crazy de leh !

i wonder if one day i can become like them .

but the dream still seems so far .

i kind of find back a bit of my passion for band after the concert ?

i don't know .

all i remember is sec 1 i love band like crazy ,

self-prac everyday , everything also talk about band .

but now ,

its sad to say .

but i think i left little passion for band ,

but i don't think its my fault at all .

call me a hao lian kia or whatever .

but if there wasn't issues like wanting to transfer me to oboe/bass clarinet/bassoon ?

i think now i will still be as passionate for band .

maybe even more .

i don't understand why i must be the one to experience all this .

i don't understand .

=.=

people leaves and people come ,

different people do things differently .

and i really don't like the way the people now .

they settle things without an aim .

that's really stupid .

and do things without even planning .

hello ,

grow a brain please .

say other people childish ?

kns .

argh .

my mind now is so like shit .

everyone's excitedly talking about japan .

and i'm not going .

yea .

shitty .

i felt no sence of belonging in band .

or rather ,

no more sence of belonging .

life is hard and i intend to give up . :/

2010-07-25T07:33:00.000-07:00

went to winnie's new house for house warming today .

it was nice .

met her friends .

her house was nice !!

and nice foooooooods . xDDD

the rest of the people played badminton while i and winnie's friend just slacked around .

haha

i'm too lazy to do anything related to sports la !!

taggies reply . xDD

2010-07-25T06:46:00.000-07:00

Yeeting: hello link you already . :D

samantha: yesh !! xDD nice right .

stacy (-:: ok linked already la . haha :D

amanda :): yep yep relinked toooo . =]=]

samantha: i like to visit their blog toooooo !!!

Yuling: haha of course i know you . :) link you soon .

samantha: its coooool la . -.-

sihui: yes its cooooool !! its my clari . haha

samantha: =p=p chou mei is human's natural process . ahaha

imy . D:

2010-07-25T00:08:00.000-07:00

i miss my mommy . like seriously .

its been 19 days that she and my grandparents went back .

and i'm missing her like shit .

ok finally my blog is done with everything a blog should have !!!

tada ~~~~

thanks to xuan !!!

if not this stupid blog will still be screwed like shit .

xDDD

2010-07-24T10:08:00.000-07:00

screw me upside down man .

when i put in the new template ,

i forget to save my old one !

now everything's gone .

walao .

screw blogger la .

why no undo one ?

2010-07-24T08:33:00.000-07:00

long time dead blog .

i shall put some photos to make it look nicer . :)

the best fan ever . xDD

me and my qian qian . 2h chalet '10 .

haha ht1 bbq . lovez .

band games day '10 . shangle's so cute .

my beloved rabbit which i gave to xinjie . D:

aha ! nbc day ! i like our uniform . lovez .

yanyan and adrian . :D they were at my house there de playground . haha

hoho . nus concert with my darling . muack muack .

2010-07-24T07:58:00.000-07:00

ok hi dead blog .

long time no see .

=.=

aha .

since i decide to play less audi ,

i shall do this to use my times .

hahaha .

i want to change my blogskin .

today went to nus concert at singapore conference with yijin .

woo .

it was like awesome .

the clarinetist there .

oh my ,

fingers move like crazy one sia .

i wonder if one day i will become like them .

ahaha .

trumpet solo .

walao . damn nice okay .

sian .

now make me want to play trumpet . :X

haha

and saxophone solo , piccolo , flute solo .

all so awesome .

argh argh and there's like 4 conductors leh .

cool bodoh .

bigbig thanks to my darling yijin for the ticket !! muack muack ok .

2010-06-13T06:43:00.001-07:00

hack reviving a blog is so hard !!!
D:
so forget it people no need tag le .
i decided to keep it dead 10 seconds ago .
:X
hahaha
-.-

2010-06-13T06:26:00.001-07:00

aha . i revived my blog . woohoo !

lols . so

hmmm

blogger kind of boring also leh . D:

never mind . later i go post some pictures !

now let me go and tag people first !

haha :D

2010-04-09T06:36:00.000-07:00

alrights .

mdm zee wanted to give me 10 green form for ,

"looking her with the corner of my eyes"

wat the hell ,

and she chased me out of the class .

=.=

watever

she say i was sitting nt like a girl and she could give me a greenform .

i nvr tuck in my shirt one greenform .

shouting at teacher 10 green form .

bad attitude one greenform .

and watever watever it become actually more than 10 greenform already .

hack shit her .

i wish she dared to give me that .

and i dare to tell dr boon that .

i;ve went round asking so many teachers if

"my style of looking at teacher"

reli looked as if am staring thm .

and they all said no .

and i was so angry ,

i should'nt have said sry to her at all .

freaking shit her .

fail my damn art .

fail it .

art reli sucks .

ttm .

reli hope she gt into trouble someday .

hack u .

better dun make me another time ,

i told my mom abt ths ,

and she said tht mdm zee's unreasonable too .

so if ths kind of thing happens next time .

ya u toot u better beware .

am nt gonna let u off so easily .

2010-04-09T06:27:00.000-07:00

right .

now i want to say abt things happening recently .

and i realise tht things i post usually are sad/angry things .

so ,

dun expect to see anything happy here .

at least ,

it will be super little .

yea ?

and my poses getting short i thk .

short and sweet .

2010-04-09T06:22:00.000-07:00

am gonna revive my blog .

i deleted some of the things thats previously in my blog and is useless now .

--- i removed music . cause i dun wan to trouble my ear .

--- random bible verse because its not working . =.=

--- gans and cliques and things . its reli old and am lazy to update it . =.=

--- cbox .

theres nth wrong with me . nobody spammed me , am nt emoing , this is just my decision .

for watever reason now , i thk i will post on ths blog without any hestitate . if u like , just leave . thank you . am nt in the mood of talking to any one . real bad mood now .

2010-04-02T03:34:00.000-07:00

eunise . handover 10 . :D

my 2 lovers . :D samantha and amanda .

zhenzhen !!

JJ is so damn cute la . haha :D

samantha !

me and valerie acting musclur . ;D

am a dancer !! :D:D:D

amanda babe . ;D

i gt tortured man !! D:

this persons name is naixin . -.- i thk he look super like chenghuat in ths photo . hahaha i stalked him !! =p

tags reply ! :D

wenjing: lols . no lor . look so creepy . D:

amanda :): -.-

Withluv , Jenny :D .: imy too !!! D; thx for the tag anw . haha

samantha: thx babe !

2010-04-01T23:26:00.000-07:00

ok...

am going to finally post after so long .

=.=

because i have something to say la .

duh . =.=

ok ...

hmmmm ,

how shld i say it ,

all i kw is u r much lousier than her .

the previous one .

i thk everyone must admit tht u r too arrogant .

dun u thk so too ?

if ppl say u gt something wrong ,

and u just simply thought tht tht person is picking on u .

-.-

cnt u just go and spot ur mistakes ?!

seriously u sucked .

u sucked so much tht the first time of ur ___________ ,

i cried .

suckish right ?

idk how the others felt ...

but its like ,

u just couldnt give me sometimes right ?

u just totally wanted to force me to play out all the notes .

i kw tht i have to sight read ,

but the first time i see it ,

u expect me to play ?

2 piece somemore .

u thk i so pro ah ?

wat shit la u .

well enough ,

am nt the onli one who gt pissed off .

thx to jj for all the comfort words .

my competition is going to die already .

idk .

shld i quit my competition ?

and become a irresponsible person frm den on ,

in my teachers eye .

and just ,

just ,

just to be able to play the pieces ,

at least ,

same level as others .

is ths wat u wan ?

sucker .

2010-03-24T05:22:00.000-07:00

ALRIGHTS . MY BLOG IS SERIOUSLY DAMN SCREWED .

I NEED TO RELINK/LINK A LOT OF PPL .

I NEED TO EDIT THE RANDOM BIBLE VERSE THINGY

BECAUSE IT DUN SEEMS TO BE WORKING ALREADY .

AWWW .

MY BLOGS SO BORING .

SO LONG NVR UPDATE .

NO ONE TAG ME OSO .

I WAS JUST TOO LAZY TO GO AND UPDATE LA .

SO BORING .

I DUN WAN TO TALK ABT SCH LIFE .

AWW ,

AND AM USING CAPS BECAUSE I LAZY TO PUT IT BACK .

MR YEOW IS SERIOUSLY A SUCKER .

I KW FRM THE FIRST TIME HE SCOLD ME .

FREAKING KPO LEH .

HE THK HE COOL MEH ?

OH CRAP .

I SERIOUSLY HATE HIM NOW .

AND ANW , AM NT GOING TO TAKE HISTORY NEXT YEAR !

GEOGRAPHYS ON THE WAY !!

SINCE I KW DORIS IS GOING NIE FOR GEOGRAPHY COURSE .

:D:D:D

SO COOL !!!

HAHA .

HMMMM ,

LET ME SEE IF I GT ANY PHOTOS ...

AM IN THE LIFT ZI-LIAN ING . =P

WITH AMANDA IN THE BUGIS LIBRARY .

SO ...

THTS THE ONLI 2 PHOTO I HAVE IN THS FEW WEEKS .

HOW PATHETIC .

OH WELL , THE MAIN REASON IS OF COURSE BECAUSE ...

I HAVE NO FRINGE !!!

HAIX .

2010-03-13T03:19:00.000-08:00

hahaha . ths kind of look creepy . dun kw where weileng gt the bigbig nerd spec . haha
with amanda camwhore again . haha
everyone say i look like am haunting joan . lols =.=
me and renmeng in bedok library . haha
my dearest wanrong !!!! =]=]=]

2010-03-13T02:51:00.000-08:00

hmmmm .

its been so long since i loged in to blogger ...

reli quite busy . x.x

haix .

and i keep getting sick eh .

gastric make me cry during band on fri .

and todae i cried again .

wat the lor .

stupid asthma .

=.=

ever since i came to singapore never come liao eh .

i tot i recovered from it already .

T.T

but apprantly its not la .

i tot without the spray i almost died just now .

cnt breath !

argh !

but , thank god tht nth happen ! :D

lols .

ok .

weileng is being nice to me these few days .

=.=

ok . taggies reply !!

samantha: haha . yea . we all should stop emoing . =]=] and np la . we so close how cn dun invite u . =]=] haha

Wenjing: yep thx a lot ah xiang er ! will cheer up and stop emo ! =]=]

qL: seriously like miss u and wanrong damn damn muchhhh ! T.T

hello: watever .

Wanling: haha . u so special how cn dun rmb sio ?! ;D

Zanne: thank u thank u ! love u ttm ! :D

Wanling: okiess . link u asap ! =]=]

2010-03-02T07:01:00.000-08:00

TAGGEIS REPLY !! :D

samantha: shangles nt gonna return u ! =p

amanda :): thx ! :D

Wenjing: yepyep ! tyty a lot !! :D

amanda :) : lols . yea . and shes damn highhh pitched . haha

JOAN`: i like those bananas too ! woot ! :D

jolyn: ty for tagging ! :D

Zanne: hehehe ... LOVE

xinni: hehe . thx for the tag . :D

RENMENG!: linking on the way !! :D

samantha: kays . invitations on the way . :D

Amanda Lim: lols okay headless women . :D

Wenjing: kay la kay la . invitations on the way liao . :D

2010-03-01T05:31:00.000-08:00

i created private blog today .

http://pain-ttm.blogspot.com/

if u wanna see , tag me .

most probably will sent an invitation .

if u close enough to me .

and yeh ,

just wanna tell u ,

dun fake giving me tht freaking sry face .

freak u noob .

i dun like u .

-.-

u freaking thk playing low notes is simply easy .

transfer for me la .

freak u .

freak uuuuuuuuuu .

2010-02-24T05:13:00.000-08:00

oh no !

i find myself just continuously doing random stuffs on the net .

which means ,

nt studying .

-.-

crap .

am gonna welcome my first failed test todae .

maths .

like shit la .

i hate factorization .

haix .

how ?

have to reli buck up eh .

no more tuition ,

means i have to depend on myself .

my eng die already la .

but with john ,

i hope i can revive it .

maths ,

maybe ms lee cn make it quite good .

and am sure gonna go to the sci remedial .

i wanted to go .

loser .

i kind of like ms kor sia .

dun kw eh ,

mayb because she didnt catch me

haha

reli veri happy tht i gt 20/25 for my history

am so surprised .

i just seriously tot i would fail it badly .

lol .

-.-

i realised tht i tend to feel tht i fail every test tht i took .

=.=

lol .

bad habit la .

haix .

but my lit ......

die la !

x.x

sat gt drills .

i hope it dun last for so long ......

and i wan to go malaysia .

x.x

crap .

sch is boring .

x.x

die .

i have no mood .

x.x

dieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

2010-02-22T17:16:00.000-08:00

hmmmm

idk wat happened to me ...

gastric is killing me ...

i kw since veri yound i been having ths prob ,

but am reli nt sure where it totally come frm ...

the feeling sucks . x.x

ever since ytd morning ,

zying predicted tht i will have stomachace aft eating the sausage at bugis street .

=.=

and like it came true ?

-.-

walao .

den aft tht the stomachace became gastric ...

whole day no appetite sio ...

walao .

=.=

i veri few time eat so less leh .

-.-

ah ...

couldnt reli concentrate in band ...

the pain is almost killing me .

plus my brand new reed ,

i felt tht i almost fainted . .______.

heng nvr la .

thank god !

haix .

but today i nvr go sch ,

i reli thk i will faint halfway .

=.=

cnt even walk with my back straight la !

-.-

stupid gastric .

stupiddddddddddddddd !

2010-02-21T07:48:00.000-08:00

some thoughts ......

its been 2 weeks since i've nt to teens .

ths sat went back ,

and i found myself ,

hmmm so deeply engrossed ?

idk how to describe tht .

but its just like ,

i cnt live without church ,

but most importantly , God .

God .

he walked into my life and nvr walk away .

how great is the love man !

i just couldnt live without it .

johns testimony was so great ...

i felt so touched !

so many things been happening ths few weeks .

but i realised tht i didnt reli put any effort in making it any better.

i shld have just put thm to God .

because for God , nth is impossible .

and i realised i just need to be more dependent to God .

just to trust him .

to have faith ,

like wat the bible says ,

faith moves mountains !

so ,

more time on God frm today onwards !

i loveeeee him .

bye ! =]

tags reply !!!

samantha: lol . haix . maybe she will dao me oso . dun kw la . but reli , hope we cn go back to those times . those happy times . and lol . idk wat we won sia . we nvr even play wacko . played truth or dare . =.= and yep cheer up . u too !

amanda :) : ya la ya la . thank u la . oso because i tag u first mah . -.-

amanda lim: hahaha thank u ! =]=]

shangle : wow shangle ! thanks huh ! anw tagged back u already . =]=]

samantha: :O ..haha . ahahahaha ! jealous me !

yihong: thank u thank u !!!!!!!!!!! =]=]

amanda :): muahahahahahahha kw y ? because i said : hi am naixin and am frm shang..................... =.=

2010-02-20T05:00:00.000-08:00

tags reply !!!

angelaa: no la . nt ur link gt problem . is u dun have a single link . =.= haha

Wenjing: lols haha . thanks for tagging yea ? tagged back u ! :D

Michelle: lol where gt nt nice ?! its nice lor !!! haha but cn if u wan retake . =]=]

samantha: lols . yea lor . emo post , u kw who am talking in my blog and i kw who u talking in ur blog ! haha lols . funny sio . lols copy me . =.= ya and the welcome party is ermermermerm . like our grp too little ppl . 5 onli eh . -.- walao den i hyper everybody dao me . i give suggestion all dun care . walao . so resulting in a ermermerm lor . =.=

la

2010-02-19T09:45:00.000-08:00

aha !
idk wat happened today .
because i just cnt wait to go dinner .
sec 1 welcome party .
no comments thank you .
ya u kw wat tht mean dunt u ?
yea .
i hope ths is nt a emo post ?
its fri and its getting late .
sat tmr .
dun wanna be so sad or watever .
am gonna get high !
so , some pics lor .
haha
:D

2010-02-17T07:15:00.000-08:00

heehee :D my beloved sam ! <3
my beloved michelle ! cny celebration in sch . =]
cute yiqian ! haha :D
beloved winnie ! ;D
i love ths emo pic sia . haha
i realised tht i tend to post somethg happy aft somethg sad .

=.=

weird sio ?

lols . picture time now . haha

:D:D:D

tags reply oso :

samantha: heehee :D:D:D <3>

LOL : :D

XUAN: thx yea ! love u babe ! =]

yihong : wah seh fast sio u . haha thx for tagging ! :D

angelaa: lols . so many ppl oso say its scary lor . but its fun !!!

2010-02-17T06:26:00.000-08:00

hello ?

wat kind of hell attitude u giving me ??

am talking to u for so long .

and u give me a brb .

wat freak ?

freak u la .

everythg , everybody the same .

freak la .

cnt u like thk a bit , just tht a little bit for me ?

why so selfish ?

idk .

haix .

forget it .

fail fail fail .

everything is a fail .

but am nt gonna to give up myself .

but maybe i will give up on u .

idk when things start to change ,

it just all happened to fast ,

even before i even start to thk using my brain .

it finishED .

hell yea ?

have to admit .

u r just so pro .

in everythg ?

yea .

theres 3 more year to go .

am nt afraid .

am nt alone .

because i have her .

i have HER .

the one i love .

and hell yea ?

wanna transfer me to _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ ?

try .

just try .

JUST TRY .

i so cnt wait to see ur reaction .

although i dun wan last time the ah lian naixin to come back ,

but i have had enough of it .

try me .

hell yea give me lies like my foundation is strong ?

yea i didnt kw tht u r so CLEVER .

smart sia .

and u thk we dun kw u being biased ?

haha

u thk u nice ?

freak u .

=.=

celebrating me myself almost 1 year without any vulgarities .

i dun wish to break my record because of u .

and u better dun make me until it break .

or else ,

nt me will suffer .

but u .

dun believe ?

try me .

haha

or maybe u cn go check out abt my background ?

i hope it dun shock u pls .

and of course ,

if u r pro enough to gt backgrounds of me .

and sadly ,

until i went to jc ,

or maybe until the day u fly away .

i wont find back my passion for _ _ _ _ and my _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ .

because ,

u ,

are meant for chaotic moments .

i see u .

i gt disguised .

alrights ?

byebye to ths emo post .

2010-02-09T06:45:00.000-08:00

ah lame , ths is the cat image of naixin tht stacy chose for me . =.=
aha ! with ren meng in the toilet . lols .
i freaking like this lor . haha royal park hotel is damn nice . >.<
sp cool lor ! but so many ppl scared of ths ! haha
am reli super bored tht i started making funny faces to the camera . haha

so many things happened these few days .

haa .

and obviously ,

its things tht saddening .

allrites ,

everyone left me .

now they left me with sl .

true enough , sf is going to 2nd aft handover .

and ay and sl would be in 1st .

and i would be left in 3rd with sl .

wat the heck .

fine watever .

i just dun feel like saying it out here .

am a noob .

loser .

freaking iddiot .

watever .

its the fact tht u ALL had make me so so so sad and hurt ,

tht i dun even bother to give a damn .

emo .

emo me .

oh crap ,

wheres tht naiba ?

probably lost in the jungle with the tiger now .

ya ,

so dun bother to even go and find her ,

if nt u will get eaten by the tiger too .

haa .

jialat .

i will miss sf the most i thk .

heh .

need to cherish the time with her left .

haix .

saddening .

forget it .

i gt history test tmr .

maybe i shld do a revision here ?

oh tht sound like a good idea la .

wat freak .

why am i talking to myself ?

watever .

=.=

account by murishi abdullah

sejarah melayu

description of the barbarians of the isles by wang da yuan

tan tock seng

omar al-junied

govindasamy pillai

pull factors :

no natural disater

job & business opportunity

peace

FREE TREAD !!!

push factors :

natural disater

war

poverty

lack of job

oh and still have ,

the malay chief tht killed the local ruler and made himself king .

parameswara

erm ...

still gt wat ?

ok why is singapore choosen ?

good location .

peace .

safe .

deep sea .

excellent harbour .

nt occupied by dutch .

argh cnt rmb already .

prepared to fail already .

haix .

its ok .

the lit test on thu is the one tht reli going to kill me .

aha !

=.=

maybe somehappy things now la .

sat had no service .

hence went to changi airport and studied with john .

=.=

actually nt even consider as study lor .

is he teach me .

=.o

haix .

my eng so lousy .

T.T

nth much happen leh .

in fact , is nth happy happen lor .

walao .

haix

chinese ney year coming ,

i cn onli say i want lots and lots of ang bao .

aha !

fri is a half day ,

thus going back to tkps !

meeting xuan and teresa !

aha !

i miss the fish noodle there lor .

=.=

gonna eat a lot a lot !!!

ok fine .

i stop here .

rather long post though .

=.=

ya and i almost forget abt tags reply !

wenjing : aha ! i always look so rock lor !! =]

samantha : haha ! =] yea ! me hearts u toooooo !! sammy !!

XUAN : heh heh ! seriously miss u damn lot lor . ;(

Siwei : alrights update already ! =]

2010-02-08T06:21:00.000-08:00

lalala

2010-02-05T09:15:00.000-08:00

hello ?

2010-02-05T09:06:00.000-08:00

test

TEST !

looks like i got too much time liao ... =.=

2010-02-02T03:45:00.000-08:00

with felicia . =]

concert ! =]

18 chef with zying . toilet in east point ! =]

2010-02-02T03:36:00.000-08:00

freak freak freak freak .

wat hell .

i hate chi lesson the most now .

wat hell lor .

say bad things about me ?

u thk i care ?

i bet if u ask the whole world to dun friend me or somethg ,

they wont believe u .

for sure man .

dun believe ?

try la !

try me man !

u kw me so well ,

u kw the consequences tht will happen to u right ?

:D:D:D

anw ,

ren ni hen jiu liao .

2010-01-25T06:18:00.000-08:00

am in a serious state of lazyness ...

wat i been doing recently is simply upload a few pics tht explain nth abt my life ...

lols

sec 2 life iznt so peaceful as sec 1 . :(

more and more things coming up .

concert was over .

somehow i reli didnt have much feeling to it .

i gt excited before the concert when i saw my frens coming .

but while in the concert itself ,

i felt as if am just playing like normally .

but nervous or watsoever .

=.=

so weird .

i rmb once my mum said tht my onli good thing is i always dun gt nervous .

and she say its because my face too thick le . =.=

wat the ,

eventually i gt upset tht my family didnt come to my concert la .

but the feelings nt tht strong .

ah crap wat am i talking here . :/

idk oso .

my mind and my brain ,

i thk ,

somethg gt stuck there i cnt take it out .

=.=

but ,

i know veri well ,

tht i am sooooooo soooooo soooooo touched ,

when i see ppl come in .

hahaha

first one i saw is derek ,

duh~

its because his nt vertically challenged height .

second one was john .

third is yf jie and 4th is lily .

i felt so touched !

tht i kept looking at thm and smiled like an iddiot .

-.o

anw .

i hate history .

=.=

2010-01-25T05:01:00.000-08:00

just some photos frm the concert... =]=]

2010-01-25T04:54:00.000-08:00

taggies reply !~

Si Wei : sry for the late reply ya... haha happy new year to u too ! ;D

VANESSA : hey . link u asap ! ;D

Winnie : oh , me too .

wenjing : thx ah ! tag back u soon ! ;D

wenjing : lol where gt toot sia . u perfectly fine . :D

ZZZ: :D

changhua: thx ah hua !! ;D:D

qL : but sadly , i need nt tie up my fringe ! =p=p=p

changhua: haha update liao la ! =]=] thx for tagging ! =]=]

Amanda Lim: thx for the tag ya ! see u in class ! ;D:D:D

2010-01-21T02:45:00.000-08:00

amanda stop saying tht i look like a big whale ! i hate u ! >.<

1st jan thanks giving dinner ~! ;D

2010-01-12T02:24:00.000-08:00

photo time again !!! lols ! just lazy to say all those sad things la . so see see these happy photo first . =]=]

2010-01-05T01:48:00.000-08:00

well ,

am here actually just to link angela up .

lols

so ,

since am here already ,

i shall just reply my tags .

=.=

TAGS REPLY !

angela from church!: heehee c; i love it too ! ;)

Changhua: thx ! tag back u soon ! c;

2010-01-04T05:08:00.000-08:00

fine .

i just rmbed something else n i decided to have just another post .

lols

am kind of a lol person recently .

maybe contacted too much with those komez person .

tht make me sing

lame lame lame lame lame lame lame lame lame lame lame lame lame !

LOL

=.=

sry , thts kind of out of topics .

ok , i just wanted to look at all my changes .

frm the day tht i accepted christ .

i went church for kind of long ,

but i reli dun kw when is the time tht i accepted jesus into my heart .

idk when it happened .

but shld be quite a long time aft i stay in church .

hmmm ,

used to be kind of ahlian la .

nw kind of ashamed for it .

seriously la , wats so cool abt all tht vulgarities ?

and all those gf bf staff ?

lol no offence to ppl reading ths .

but i made up my mind liao .

i have had enough of tht kind of life ,

where everyday all u thk is abt ppl u dun like ,

n shout vulgarities .

where u scared here n there whether u bf gt snatched away by a ahlian pro-er than u .

enough liao .

thank katherine for bringing me to teens .

as i thk back ,

i find myself quite a weird person ...

first day knowing katherine n i went to church with her .

lols

i cnt rmb clearly ,

but i thk aft the 2nd or 3rd time with her there ,

she went back to chins ,

so , well , i was alone there .

but reli thank god tht i managed to stay .

for watsoever reason .

i stayed n nw i nvr regret .

its nice .

its reli nice .

i hope ths cn continues ,

until the day i die ,

and i will go to heaven with god ...

c;c;c;c;

2010-01-04T04:44:00.000-08:00

2h 2h 2h 2h 2h 2h 2h 2h 2h

oh well , am going insane soon i thk.

new class , new faces , new challenges

and most of all ! new RESULT ! new TARGET !

am dying.

i just felt so dead.

i cnt talk.

onli when am with the cliques , den everything poured out.

nt even one clique in the freaking 2h.

13 cliques !

kind of considered as a big grp , but no ones there for me .

or maybe i shall say , no ones there for me , yet .

maybe i will be emoing for a few days .

but i hope i cn get over soon too .

making new frens shld b nice , nt force or watsoever .

i thk i just simply failed my eq or somethg .

loser

loser la u . =.=

oh since am here , i shall talk abt ths expression >> =.=

well , john said tht ths was the classic one . =.=

and so he typed out ths >> =.-

maybe is typo or something , but it look kind of cute .

yea , so i thk nw i fall in love with spamming him .

haha

but nt onli one modified one , there are a few eh .

=.-

-.=

=.o

o.=

-.o

o.-

lols

damn cute sia .

anw i learnt a new phrase today frm him !

fall head over heels !

oh well , i nvr thk tht it will have ths kind of phrase lor ...

-.=

i was saying fall under ur pants and things ...

oh well , yes it sounded wrong .

but kind of fun .

entertained me when am sitting in the hall half asleep .

well , theres band today n i didnt go .

my fault ?

u dare to say tht i kill u straight away on the spot ah .

freak

no one msg me ,

or maybe cornelia msg to my the other phone ,

which is like in pluto .

haix

i realise tht nwadays i talk more abt my frens here .

and well , most is my beloved frens frm church la .

lily gt a qq today ,

so cute sia .

she put her name as fly lil

so cute !

>.<

fine ,

nw the onli thing i kw is ,

am onli the real n all free {{ shi nai nai ba }}

when am in church .

just like the song sings " free 我得自由你爱拯救我让我能欢呼跳舞 "

i reli love tht song .

it reli made me think through .

well , my body was given by god ,

yet i went round piercing here n there .

haix ...

felt guilty nw .

as wat the song said , 让我能欢呼跳舞

i have the ability to talk , n walk around .

thts like such a big grace !

thank god !

ok ,

i love God !

for He loved me FIRST .

2010-01-03T02:43:00.000-08:00

TAGS REPLY !!!!!!!

;D;D;D;D;D;D

Amanda Lim: THANK YOU ! U TOO ! ;D;D

amanda :): THX TO ME LA THE PROFESSIONAL PHOTOGRAPHER ! HAHA

XUAN: HMMMM, I WISH THT TOO ! U TOO ! TAKE CARES !!! ;D;D

withluv , Jenny :D: HEHE ;D U TOO !

samantha: WHERE GT RETARD !! QUITE NICE WAT ! HAHA ;D;D

Winnie: NOPE ! ITS JUST BECAUSE I WAS WEARING HOME CLOTH. I ALWAYS SUCKED WITH SCHOOL UNIFORM. =(

2010-01-02T05:12:00.000-08:00

2009-12-31T03:59:00.000-08:00

I THK SOON I WILL B VERI LAZY TO UPDATE MY BLOG N ALL I DO IS JUST POST SOME PICS THT TALKS ABT MY LIFE ! LOL LOL LOL !

2009-12-31T03:47:00.000-08:00

SRY AM USING CAPS !
AM NT SHOUTING AT U OR WATEVER !
I JUST FEEL LIKE USING CAPS !
MUAHAHAHA !

TAGS REPLY :

wenjing: YUP YUP TAGGED U TOO !! ;D;D

withluv , Jenny :D: HAHA WELCOME ! ;D;D

Amanda Lim: YEA YEA ME TOO !! HOPE IT WILL B GOOD !! ;D;D

samanthaY\: WE WILL ALL JUST JIAYOU TGT ! ;D;D

Michelle: HEH HEH ! ;D;D

Winnie: HAHAHA WHO ASK U NVR SCROLL DOWN THT LITTLE BIT LOR... HAHAHA ;D;D

2009-12-28T03:29:00.000-08:00

WINNIE : I GT REPLY UR TAG ITS IN THE POST QUITE LONG AGO. HAHA

YES MS I MISSSSSSS U TOOOOOO !~ <3

2009-12-28T03:26:00.000-08:00

WE PLAYED TIC TAC TOE ON STACYS ARM N ITS DUPER FUN.

I BET U CNT GUESS WATS THE WAY WE PLAYED.

MUAHAHAHA !

NEXT TIME WHEN AM BORED,

I SHALL ENTERTAIN MYSELF USING THS METHOD.

MUAHAHAHA !

SEE ONN IS FUNNY LOR.

HER MSG SO DAMN CRAPED ME UP.

HAHA

LOL !

STEAMBOAT OF HT1 WAS FANTASTIC !

I ATE SO MUCHHHHH !

MUAHAHAHA !

GT A NICE PURSE N HANDPHONE STRAP FRM YF JIE,

SNOOOOOPY FRM LAOGONG N LAOPO~

A TEDDDDDY BEAR FRM SIWEI !

AM HAPPY ~!

WOOH~~

2009-12-27T05:00:00.000-08:00

JUST SOME PHOTO ! ;D

2009-12-27T04:59:00.000-08:00

TAGS REPLY :

Tiffany: ;)

Amanda Lim: 美丽 CHRISTMAS TOO ! ;D

samantha: YEA YEA WE ROCK THE WORLD !~

2009-12-23T06:53:00.000-08:00

after talking to yf jie i felt sooooooooooo mcuh better man....

haha

and so now am kind of high la !

tmr gt xmas celebration at kapt eh !

haha ppl will be coming down frm malaysia...

thts like so exciting lor...

anw,

xmas concert.

let me post some pics !

2009-12-23T05:06:00.000-08:00

ok.

am nt in a good mood now.

ths is my 100th post!

am supposed to be high !

=.=

but i just couldnt get high...

lol i wonder where tht naiba go.

=.=

i thk i nt a reli veri high person leh.

i emo veri OFTEN !

but siwei keep saying tht without me, they wont get high. =.=

he say am the highest person, n no one will take my place.

hmmm mayb thts onli in church ?

the onli place whr i cn reli put down all my burdens all just laugh to the max.

yes !

thts the onli place.

removed some links just nw.

thts y i probably in bad mood ?

argh watever.

i dun wan to kw n i dun care !

but nw my links look freaking little la.

watever.

its okay its alrite naiba naiba fight fight fight !

woohoo~~~

ok !

done

byebye

n congratulate my 100th post !

actually i dun even have any feeling lor.

2009-12-23T04:25:00.000-08:00

tags reply :

XUAN : yesh yesh meet up soon !!!! i miss u damn lot lot !!! :D

withluv , Jenny :D : haha hello !! :D

Winnie : wah wah wah miss u sia !!!! :(

2009-12-18T04:06:00.000-08:00

AM JUST LAZY LAZY TO UPDATE OR POST ANYTHING HERE !

I DUN LIKE MY BLOGSKIN BUT I JUST LAZT TO CHANGE.

=.=

FORGIVE ME FOR MY LAZINESS...

HMMM, ANW,

THS BLOG IS ALMOST LIKE 1 YEAR N NT EVEN 100 POSTS...

=.=

WATEVERRRRRRR!!!!

I JUST SO DUN HAVE THE MOOD TO POST ANYTHING....

2009-12-16T18:07:00.000-08:00

tag reply

tt : ahaha thx ah mei nw quite cheered aft spark. ahaha

XUAN : tyty :) muacks ! love u lots. <3

xinjie : ya my name is nice.

Tiffany : hahaha thx a lot ! :D heng u r nt angry ! :D

xinjie : watever.

Stacy :B : thanks a lot ah ! yup yup ! fri will be better ! :) relinking soon ! :D

amanda :) : missed u too !!!! hws band ? u ask me ? =.= i go camp nvr go band leh... haha but shld b nt bad la. rmb to buy me presents !!!!!!!

wenjing : ahxianger~~~ am on the way of missing everyone so thts y am actually emoing... cnt believe myself too... yup yup anything i will just find my ahxianger n pour everything out !!! :DDDDD

2009-12-16T17:51:00.000-08:00

spark is over.

kind of sad la :(

so many ppl r leaving.

had a reli fun time with those malaysia ppl.

kuo zheng, joshua, zhiyang, jun hao & many many more...

they r reli gd ppls,

i reli nid to thank thm for their coperation.

nt forgetting, jason, siwei & duncan.

everyone did a fantastic job !

finally, our own sg ppl !

pam, lydia, winnie, rui xin, derek, doris, hwee fang & our all mighty yf jie !

accion did a fantastic job !

ACCION WE ARE THE BEST !!!!!

wat to say nw,

i reli hope tht spark cn be longer...

i dun wan it to end so soon sia...

everything is just so fun fun fun !

nw am waiting for lilys photo

the one taken with flour on our face...

haha

2009-12-08T23:09:00.000-08:00

om gosh !

am noise pollution and u r music ?

freak la

u r shit

duh.

freak u

freak u ALL

2009-12-08T22:32:00.000-08:00

al rites

u r just a piece of shit.

2009-12-08T06:20:00.001-08:00

fine !

nth is wrong !

am just plain bad mood !

okay ?

2009-12-07T21:12:00.000-08:00

for people who might c ths,

i tell u wat

am so seriously hurt when u all wanted to put me in bassoon tht the pain will nvr go away.

u understand ?

i been crying for tht few weekand

i kw u dun care

but i just wanted to say

yea so wat if my playing is nt gd

wat do u expect ?

practise 24 hr a day ?

i had already put in extra effort i believe myself

but so wat ?

u r nt improving.

thts wat u gonna say rite ?

i knew it.

yea so u wan me to respect u

so i will do frm today onwards

yea

说到做到

alrite seniors,

seniors,

nt frens.

2009-12-07T20:57:00.000-08:00

okay

here comes all my complain

OM GOSH !

BAND CHALET N BBQ WAS AWESOMELY AWESOME

LETS C WAT I HAD EAT DURING THE BBQ OKAY ?
3X FISHBALL

3X SATAY

1X SAUSAGE

8X SCOPE OF RICE

3X CUP OF DRINK
OM GOSH !

AWESOME RITE ?!

I ATE SOOOOOOOOO MUCH MAN !

OH SO DAMN AWESOMEUNTIL I CNT TAHAN GO OFF EARLIER WITH AMANDA N SAMANTHA EH.

OH GOSH

YEAH

I NVR WANT TO GO CHALET AGAIN

I SHLD HAVE JUST LISTENED TO A YI N JUST GIVE THM THE MONEY

SHLDNT EVEN BOTHER ANYTHING

=.=

OH AND COME ON,I BET ITS THE DAY IN THE YR THT I SAID MOST "SIAN"

LOLS

YEAH

WATEVER U WAN TO SAYWATEVER.

I JUST COULDNT BOTHER TO CARE

I TELL U WAT,AM SO JUST CNT B BOTHERED BECUZ I FELT THT AM HURTALRITES MAN ?

U UNDERSTAND ?

NO U DUN.

WATEVER.

I GT SO PISSED ALREADY.

OH ANW,DO SET A GD EXAMPLE MAN,SENIORS.

I WILL LEARN FRM UR BEHAVIOUR N MAKE IT MY OWN BEHAVIOUR.

DUH

THTS EVERYONE BEEN DOING SINCE THEY WERE BORN LOR.

AND OH,

AM SO GONNA SERIOUSLY RESPECT MY SENIORS FRM TODAY ONWARDS

HAPPY ?

I WILL RESPECT OKAY ?

RELI RESPECT.

NT FAKE

SO NO MORE :

JOKES

FUNNY SINGING

CALLING OF NICKNAMES

CHATTING ABOUT PERSONAL STAFF
YEAH ,AND I OSO WAN TO APOLOGISE TO ALL MY SENIORSFOR DOING ALL THOSE RUDE THINGS THT I DID ABOVE.

SORRY

NAMELY

WEI LENG

GWENDOLYN

XINJIE

BRENDON
ALLRITES

HAPPY NW LE

2009-12-06T04:31:00.000-08:00

OM GOSH !

MY FAULT !

YEAH DUH MY FAULT !

oh crap ths is reli like crap lor.

freak u la

walao eh

izit reli my fault

om gosh i cnt believe my grandparents shouted at me

freak u

freak u la

freak u man

wat the hell i feel like crying

its been like 10 years since i last gt shouted by my grandparents.

so freak u

freak u all

everyone

freak u

freak u iddiot

freak u

so wat if she is young

n den she cn say rude n cursing words to everyone

like 神经病 n 我打死你

oh freak u man

u so rock

but i hate u

ths ur style rite

huh

cry la

anythg just burst into tears

n every single person in the hse will have to crowd ard u n say joke to u

to make u happy

so wats ths man

i feel like shouting vulgarities right into ur face

i shld have went to chalet

i shld have just leave the hse !

freak u man freak u !

shes just suck a failure

okay fine

forget it den

am even a more failure

freak u

freak u la

freak u man

freak u all

iddiot

stupid

freak u

simply just freak u

stupid

2009-12-05T18:16:00.000-08:00

oh freak its the fact tht i 4gt to reply my tags again. =.=

Tiffany : yeah yeah long tym no c oso !

samantha : dun, all of us nid to jiayou lor, if nt ltr kanna scold again. =.=

xinjie : i kw my name veri nice la no nid to keep calling. hahaha

2009-12-05T18:07:00.000-08:00

loads n loads of thgs r happening recently.

duh... thtsz always thgs tht make me bei song !

lols.

but there r more thgs tht make me say LOL.

pls lor, its reli a laugh out loud !

e.g when i tok to freaking amanda n she dun understand wat i toking. =.=

acting tht amandas pregnant with another man n go crazy saying wan to kill eunice. =.=

buying a new phone !!!!!!!!!!!!! >...<

LOL !

today gt band chalet

ltr gng most probably with stacy n amanda.

lol

nt excited abt it at all.

=.=

lols

it make me cnt go to sun service todae.

freak lor.

i like onli have so few chance to go sun service,

but one of it stop me here. =.=

walao eh.

yf jie say to show my loyalty by selling the tickets.

lols

okay fine i assume i had sold tht 7 ticket liao.

so am relaxed.

FINALLY

its like begging ppl to buy,

but of cuz !

i thank for the ppl who purchased my tickets !

Angela

Cher young

Cloud

Derek

John

Lily

Teng teng

Yf jie

oh in fact, i sold 8 tickets !

i thk mayb i shld just let off of derek,

hes totally nt interested.

so might as well just dun waste his money.

mayb he will buy my next next yrs ticket.

LOL

watever.

am so nt in the mood of blogging.

amanda n stacy dun wan ans my call.

walao eh.

ah nvm la.

wat the freak la

i hate google chorome.

whenever i write a word,

den underneath it it will come out the red weaving line.

walao eh i oso nt writing compo... =.=

watever

2009-11-25T21:08:00.000-08:00

oh am in choir and cheer !!
haha so cool,
am gonna sing...
cnt believe tht lily chose me.
=.=
i scared ltr i ruin the whole thg up.
hahaha !
anw,
nth reli happened recently.
except tht sometimes am still (xianging) somethg !
lols !

tags reply :

xinjie : yea i like my tht post oso. =.= okay i will jiayou . :D

samantha : okok i will jiayou !!!!!!!!!

Zanne : ohohoh hello hello ! :)

2009-11-23T19:05:00.000-08:00

ytd was farewell
had some fun ! :D
i was the most growth clarinetist according to odelia !
muahah :D
nw i reli thank God !
He is the one hu give me all those !
i joined band;
i joined clarinet;
i had all the nice seniors;
i made all my best friends;
i remembered all the memories;

everything, everything is just so nice in band
i shall say ths : I LOVE AHBAND SO MUCH SO MUCH !
haha

2009-11-22T05:16:00.000-08:00

lols
the fact tht i 4gt to reply my tag again.
haha

BLOGSHOPPING-S : okay will take a look.

jolyn : hello !

samantha : lols. i oso dun wan to xiang the person liao. haha jiayou oso !

2009-11-22T03:39:00.000-08:00

successfully moved house todae.
lols
kind of tiring la
slp for the rest of the day then.
hahaha
first day as a real usher A
felt so excited !
wow !
but its kind of difficult i thk,
cuz i didnt reli succeed.
lols
but its so nice to learn new thgs !
muahaha ! :D
service was great.
aft service i started to sell my ticket !
hahaha
currently 6 sold out.
wooh ~~~
cloud, yun fong, john, angela, cher young & lily !
hahaha thanks all !
love n muacks !~
stayed back for cheer,
awesome man.
ltr den went to cityhall for ruixins bdae celebration
haha
took a lot zi lian photo wif her.
waiting for her to tag me at facebook.
reached hm a while i called lily,
n told her somethg,
and
she
was
freaking
L
A
M
E
!!!!!!!
lols =.=
wat the, i haf 2 lame leader.
haix..
just nw tolk to yf jie,
muahaha
nth liao.
bye~

2009-11-18T22:45:00.000-08:00

i dun feel like posting anything
so many things bothering me.
i onli told net and samantha onli.
lols
seriously dun understand my heart
when did i become liddat huh ?
ths the first time leh
reli cnt believe it man
haix....

2009-11-15T06:57:00.000-08:00

oh i forgot to reply my tags.
haha.

wenjing : okay, relinking soon. :D

winnie : yeah ! cheers clique !

amanda : all right clari we shall jiayou tgt ! wooh~ yes my ahgong is damn cute.

samantha : okay, relink asap !

:D

2009-11-15T06:53:00.000-08:00

well done man.
you had successfully made my heart stop beating for that one moment.
ya you know who you are,
but sadly, i dont know who you are.
oh you keep it veri good yeah?
lols,
it was really stuning to see that after such long time of peace.
its truth that i will definitely learn something.

but i still thank god,
which is the only thing that i can do currently.
i dont understand why people do that,
its waste of a time.
=.=
whatever and anyway,
am just gonna stay the way i am.
no matter what and how hard you are trying to make me sad.
:D
am not gonna do as you said.
:)
cheers!

2009-11-13T07:59:00.000-08:00

band is killing me...
x.x
clari left me and went to play 1st clarinet for danse diabolique ytd during sectionals.
i was kind of sad la !
i told her tht she will b clar onli without the i .
cuz we r separated .
=.=
lols
but she look even sader than me lor .
haix
apparently it izent easy.
so jiayou clari !
danse diabolique is a freaking murderer.
it killed me.
aft sectionals ytd,
i went to my ahgong hse,
my ahgong was amazed at my section tee wooh !
he tot e clarinet behind me is an aeroplane or somethg liddat.
used in war tht type.
=.=
i was lyk.
o.o ?
haix
ths few days o keep thking abt my skill.
all of thm all so pro la ,
i was lyk far away behind thm somewhr under the rainbow ?
=.=
4gt it,
i thk am just gng to work hard on it ,
for ths my one and onli interest
hohoho !
jiayou !
jiayou !

2009-11-10T19:04:00.000-08:00

i was kind of sad ytd morning when i waked up.
why ?
oh lols.
its becuz of my dream la.
=.=
at the end of the concert we are supposedly to play a solo piece.
am damn worried abt it lor.
and i dreamed tht no one offered help for me.
=.=
samantha say she just dun wanna help me.
stacy oso.
clari just simply ignored me and walked to the other person.
=.=
lols
its such a scary dream,
tht when i waked up i tot its real.
=.=
but the fact tht samantha, stacy&clari are so good to me finally wake me up.
hahaha
clari offered me duat.
stacy and samantha offered me trio !
:D :D :D
am so damn happy !
hahaha.
indeed another happy day in band,
but my stupid clarinet just dun wanna work for me
tried clari instru and cn play nicely.
=.= so means nt my prob la its the instru.
=.= but amanda cn play my instru wif her mouthpiece.
=.= so mayb still my a bit problem.
went to storm room with mr chua.
he checked and checked my instru,
tape here tape there,
and the fact tht, =.=
i still cnt play.
pissed him off. =.=
but ltr he find out tht the thg tht gt problem is my mouthpiece.
he said : aiyo ! cnt la ! like gonna stuck there liddat !
haha ! finally find out the solution !
i tried on his mouthpiece with his reed,
and the fact tht i cn play every note effortlessly,
make me happy !
nt my problem le yea !
=.=
but den he tell me tht his mouthpiece cost 3oo dollar,
and mine most probably cost 30 dollar.
=.= 10 times different man !
WAT CRAP !
lols.
anw den i changed a new mouthpiece but its still not tht good.
i thk am gonna to bring my own instru to the sch despite the "farness"
fine,
like wat clari had said,
its worth the distance.
ya i thk so,
i just so hate my instru in sch.
especially wif clari beside me hu use a sooooo nice instrument.
jealous until my spec drop la.
ararar
anw aft band went to eat at eighteen chef with stacy samantha & clari.
made a reservation of stacys name .
hushhush !
suddenly i rmb the song tht clari keep on singing. =.=
saw sihui n beatriz.
and during the reserving period went to buy rubber band.
haha actually is they pei me go find the necklace la.
aft tht bought rubber band.
and i gt a free one !
ate curry sausage cheese bake rice !
yummy !
oh and extra top up of sausage cuz stacy dun want !
oh stacy, i love u so much !
ate stacys icecream too.
cuz she cnt eat !
:D hahaha
actually clari oso wan give me her icecream one.
but she say she cnt resist le. =.=
aft tht went to take bus wif clari
and went hm.
=.=
haha okay thts all.
bye ~

2009-11-04T17:22:00.000-08:00

lols
=.=
idk wat to do sia
so sian
ths week so damn busy
EVERYDAY cca leh
walao eh
i no nid to study izit ?
crazy one leh.
ltr gt sectionals again
wearing section tee
aiya watever la.
i just find it so sian
=.=
=.=
watever
idk wat to post le
byebye

2009-10-31T07:11:00.000-07:00

oh gosh
ths is just so ridiculous
=.=
the anglican high sch hand book 2009,
tht i had been looking for for abt 8 months,
jumped out of my hse just nw.
=.=
its like,
todae is the first day of holiday eh !
wat the !
ths is freaking stupid lor.
=.=
haix, nvm
i shall just take it as suvenior
lols

2009-10-28T02:48:00.000-07:00

its the ugly truth.
the really ugly one.

actually,
i have no idea what am i going to write in this post,
today in school i had gastric,
back home ealier,
i sat down and thought really deeply.
hey why is this just happening to me ?
i know i had really done a lot of wrong things.
really a lot a lot.
am telling people that i can not stand vulgarities,
when in side my heart,
i shout it out loud when am angry.
what's this ?
should that be what you should do as a daughter of God.
i gossiped behind people's back whereas i ask people not to do that to us ?
its unreasonable.
but i don't really understand,
why does everything start to change since the time i came back from China ?
what happened ?
its the ugly fact that i had no idea at all.
but i choose to trust winnie le,
even if she's wrong,
i've trusted her already,
what else can i do ?
abandone her and wenjing, qinlin and wanrong just for you ?
all rights man,
its totally impossible,
i think that my friendship with wanrong n qinlin is tough.
we quarreled many times,
we got backstabbed by the same person when our friendship is not even strong.
but we still make it to the end.
i thank God for that.
its just impossible to let go of their hands,
and so the same for winnie, wenjing and the rest.
i remember in the beginning of the year,
where we sit near to each other,
and everytime you would call me to buy sweets for you,
and everytime we would be together taking some videos,
and we will laugh and laugh and laugh non-stop.
isn't that wonderful memories ?
oh but i almost forgot,
its all over now.
its the ugly truth that because of winnie,
you start to hate me,
and its also the ugly truth that,
because of one of your good fren who i suppose,
backstabbed me somehow,
i started to hate you.
God says we must be mercy and forgive and forget.
but sometimes its just so difficult for me to do.

its the ugly truth that i said bad things of you and thought really negatively about you.
because of all that confections that happened weeks ago,
you saw my tears ya ?
do you think thats faked ?
i suppose i told you before the reasons when i would cry,
its my heart pain.
most of the pain physically i could bear with it,
but not with my heart yea ?
but its even the more uglier truth that,
you said to my friends who are neutral,
bad things about me ?
ya ?
we are not stupid,
its obvious.
its got another 3 years in band that we will meet each other.
and its gt another 3 chance that we will be in the same class.

i know about my own ugly truth,
i trust people too easily,
and am always over-protective.
but i never regret all that i had done ?
i've standed up for winnie and now i've make myself a group of enemies.
all that i done for winnie resulting me in what ?
spammed blog, losing of friends, gaining of enemies, vulgarities about me.
so have i regretted ?
hmmm, maybe in the future i will,
but so far i havent realise yet.
am sure that i gained something,
i think i had became more matured in friendship.
you are a good friend indeed,
but winnie is better.
qinlin and wanrong is the best.
i believe no one hate me in my clique,
we might not be best friends,
but we were good friends.
so whats really good friendships ?
you will get test for it.
did i had quarrel with wanrong or qinlin ?
yes i did,
i remembered in the beginning i scolded them inside my heart,
but so ?
are we still friends now ?
the answer is obvious rite ?
are we just friends ?
we are toghter in school most of the times.
but the ugly truth is,
we are all going to different classes,
next year,
maybe we will be just a hi-bye friends,
next next year,
maybe we will not be even saying hi-bye.
but so what ?
i've got all the photos taken,
they are the best memories of my secondary 1 life.
and i still have my cliques.
am not alone.
oh i think am a bit out of points already.
but its just pitiful to lose you,
you are really a good friend,
i will remember all our good memories and deleted the bads in my brain.
but its wonderful to gain the cliques,
lastly,
this would be my words for all my friends,
i really thank you for the memories i had.
and extra thanks to wanrong and qinlin whom,
all this while,
been standing by my side.
cliques, you all are the bestest out of the best.
i here wish all of you a wonderful year ahead,
and i really hope that we do keep in touch even when we go to different classes,
clique outing all rights ?
we shall forgot about all our worries and just came to talk with our old friends.
my loves,
cliques,
freda, liyun, qinlin, wanrong, michelle, samantha, wenjing, winnie, xinni, desiree & hilda.
girls, lets all jiayou for next year and make other great friends.
but just, leave some space for the cliques in youe heart.

ha,
i think am going to cry,
only 2 more days left in school.
oh please,
let us have more time.

2009-10-27T03:30:00.001-07:00

am starting to reread my bible,
ths time, eng one.
i come across ths verse frm matthew chapter 7
it says:

1. do not judge, or you too will be judged.
2. for in the same way you judges others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.
3. why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye?
4. how can you say to your brother. 'let me take the speck out of your eye,' when all the time there is a plank in your own eye?
5. you hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearlyto remove the speck from your brother's eye.

i reli wan to thank god for giving me ths 5 verses.
i thk it reli describe the situation happening nw,
basically,
wat it is saying is:
do not judge or gossip ppl or else u will be done the same way,
hw do you thk abt others is hw others thk abt you.
why do u thk tht other ppl gt attitude prob when u urself's attitude is nt good?
how cn u tell others, let me help out wif ur attitude prob when u gave a black face?
so stop faking, change ur own attitude be4 u wan to do so to others.

oh it reli described hw i feel,
so far,
i thk i've reli done a lot of wrong
i thk i reli showed black face to u sometimes
and truth enough,
i did gossip u guys
u kw hu am toking abt,
i kw u would see ths post
so am just wishing to tell u,
nw tht i had realise my mistake,
i hope u realise it too.
u kw the reason y u wan to say abt others ?
y ?
have u ever ask urself ?
1 suggestion to u,
try to thk frm another perspective,
r we doing everythg wrong ?
all is there reasons tht interlock with each others ?
like wat u had said ?
i dun wan to say until like am someone tht r giving u lessons liddat
i dun wan to act matured or watever
am onli 2 yr older than u,
which is nt veri much
i just sincerly apologise to those ppl tht i had gossiped be4.
u kw hu u r alrite ?
so i reli hope tht thgs would b changed.
just stop doing thgs when u have fun by hurting others.
its just not the way.

2009-10-27T03:18:00.001-07:00

oh no am getting more and more excited now adays about spark
:(
tht the fact tht i cnt even make myself to go and sleep at night
i keep thking abt the thgs happen last yr,
and mayb the thgs gng to happen ths yr.
lol
ths is kind of lame la.
watever
=.=
anw,

J
I
A
Y
O
U

and

I
N
V
I
T
E

more

P
E
O
P
L
E

!!!!!

2009-10-26T05:14:00.001-07:00

ok fine am super bored nw
:(
i had played com the whole day and nw my eyes hurts
:(
i gt nth to do so thts y am here to blog la
:)
oh ya,
i bet u all cnt see my cursors nw
cuz its BLACKKKKKK
=.=
lols.
its nice but i dun like it
it move so damn slow like a snail...
=.=
anw,
i thk am gng to buy a new fone le,
cuz e stupid fone i buy in china,
nw cnt even charge properly...
-.-
oh and am gng to do hair extension/highlighting during e holidays
i hope band allows tht?
suggest me wat colour suits me yea ?
am gonna look younger and even more hyper !
haha
hope tht through the spark i cn grow n learn to lead ppl !
J
I
A
Y
O
U

N
A
I
B
A
!!!!!!

its the fact tht am the best in my heart la
duh
=.=
haha

2009-10-25T07:54:00.000-07:00

its the first tym tht i change my blog skin
i wanted to change a mood la
i reli love my new blogskin !
although it used me about 2 hours.
talked to yf jie just nw abt spark camp,
n actually ths yr i will b e assiantant,
oh helper la.
its super exciting la
i felt so good.
but its tym to face the fact,
most of the ppl i invited is rejecting me.
=.=
haix, how ?
pray lor.
ppl parent dun allow
ppl oversea
ppl dun feel lyk gng
ppl scared paiseh
...
i msg ppl until my fone gng no money liao.
still no one wan to support me.
:(
sad la of cuz
but i thk am nt gng to give up easily.
theres still loads of thgs for me to do yeah ?
so jia you n cheer up naixin ?
oh and i felt reli stressed out just nw msging ppl.
my heart felt so hot lor. =.=
i wan too anxious.
haixxx
i kw God is there to support me,
so there ya,
Go !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anw, sat had usher meeting
oh so cool they gng to make name tap tht gt my name on it.
woo~~~~~
haha hmmm,
i must change !
must b more open to ppl !
haha
alrite,
thts all,
lols
still feeling stressed out sia.
=.=

2009-10-22T07:58:00.000-07:00

hmmm,
now is 10.58
quite late already huh?
lols.
but i decided to post something as i dun want to put it in my heart.
well,
i saw something just now which make me a bit,
hmmm,
pissed.
yeah,
pissed.
well,
i just want to say that,
people who hurt others think that they are hurted first,
well,
they think that whatever they say is not hurting the other party,
well,
obviously they are wrong.
okay,
mayb now they are thinking that they are hurted first.
oh well,
think about it,
why would someone want to hurt others for no purpose?
there would always be a reason behind.
ya i dun want to mention out the exact thing that is happening now.
but i just think that,
if you are so proud of yourself,
then please,
dun even bother to hurt others.
human is always weak,
even friends get hurt easily,
dun even say about enemies.
i thought we once were good friends.
but i didnt know that its just simply so weak.
yup,
honestly,
am sad over it you know,
many times i been thinking about the things we do together,
many times i been looking at those memories.
but so what,
we are breaked already.
i tried my best to just accept you again.
during our project,
but its just to no avail,
in fact,
it onli make me more sad about the lose of our friendship.
haix,
not anymore about us,
but about you and the other party,
if you happen to see this one day,
i know that it wont help in rejoining our friendship or whatever,
i know that you would only hate me more.
haha,
so,
hmmm,
i think you have low self evidence,
yeah,
thats why you are trying your best to hurt others.
i dun know why this would be happening,
but for sure,
both have done something wrong.
but i believe that we didnt do everything,
in fact,
i really think that those who had done more wrong is your side,
dun deny okay,
you also wanted to know what had happened,
and according to the others,
you did apologise,
so i cherish that,
even though i didnt hear a single thing.
but its okay,
i remember one time you asked me if i trust you or the other party,
and i said the other party,
as i think back,
i realise that maybe am hurting you,
so am saying sorry here.
i dun know what else could i do to help you.
i really did prayed for you.
oh maybe you are thinking that i post this for the purpose of embrassing you.
and i want to tell you that am not.
am just trying to tell you something in a classmate perspective.
ya?
if you think that am wrong,
you can come to my face and tell me right away,
i wont mind.
with all that,
i hope that you understand me,
even though i doubt it.

goodbyes, 11.19